It took me a pathetically long time to realize what I was doing was not enough (took NY in 2016). I did what Kaplan said (including watch all of the lectures on normal speed) and then got absolutely destroyed by the "midterm." -- Like, I did worse on the midterm than my diagnostic. Spent about 12 hours panicking/reevaluating my life and figured fuck it, I'll forego lectures and focus on what I thought/hoped worked: maximum amount of practice MBE questions.
Ended up making/reading/annotating outlines for the subjects (in lieu of autopiloting through lectures) that were on the exam, and then just doing as many MBE questions for each section as I could until I was averaging 75%+ corrects for each subject.
I was pretty unsure about what to do for essays, so I read the TLS guide to bullshitting bar essays thread (mandatory reading imo), and then just read lots and lots of model answers (some of which were inherently wrong about parts of the law, wp Kaplan ) and reminded myself to follow the right essay structure, even if I can't recall the right rule.
Essay day for the bar was the most demoralizing experience of my life (not counting artificially emotional stuff like losing in hockey, etc). I was 99% sure I failed (and for some essays, I wrote a max of like 200 words, essentially just a skeleton of the structure with some rules I invented). I thought I knew secured transactions, for example, and then on the MEE we got some absurdly confusing fact pattern with a cancer fighting technology affixed to a building. I filled in IRAC with some bullshit secured-transaction-ey sounding words and moved on.
I decided to follow through on showing up for the next day of the exam (had a steak dinner with my mom the night of the essays and ate like two bites and just sat there dumbfounded, according to her -- no real recollection of this meal).
The MBE questions didn't "feel" like the practice questions I'd done 2000 of for kaplan, but I just put all my trust in the practice i'd done and took it one question at a time. It was def stressful and a lot of questions i felt like i had down to two options, but that's kind of the nature of this test.
I got out of the MBE a few minutes early and didn't have any of my shit on me besides what I needed to take the test, so I asked some guy to borrow his phone for a sec. He hem'd and haw'd for a while and was like look make it quick. I was like dam. He was like I just flew in from Dubai to take this thing and my phone calls cost like $40/second. I called my ride and then talked to that guy for a while and he was like yeah there's a lot of us foreigners taking the NY bar. For some reason it never dawned on me that my "competition" wasn't just all the tryhards from good schools (I went to a TTT), it was also all kinds of other people. Then I remembered during the MPT, my neighbor never opened her second booklet. I also remembered going to the bathroom and seeing someone writhing on the floor crying. What's the cutoff for autopass due to MBE performance again?
Anyways the next few months were brutal bc I was already making arrangements to take the bar again, assuming I failed. Everyone would not shut the fuck up about it either. I turned on my poker player brain and turned into a cold calculating killer. I forgot what day we get results, and forced myself not to think about the bar at all. Then one random November morning, I wake up to 5 new texts from random classmates saying "CONGRATS YOU DID IT" and I was like o shit, better call mom, she started crying, and I was finally able to breathe. We went to a nice restaurant and I enjoyed my meal. Then random hoops to jump thru to get admitted in NY (e.g. 50 hour pro bono requirement that ate up my winter vacation during my tax LLM), but finally --> attorney.
Anyways i'm off on a tangent but the reason I'm posting is to encourage you to evaluate your method. You should definitely trust the process prescribed by your bar class, but don't blindly assume you're learning, especially if you feel like you're not, or if you encounter evidence that you're not (my evidence was my 48% correct answer rate on the kaplan MBE midterm). If lectures don't work for you, find a better use of your time.
Also, a plug for the iphone MBE flash cards app. It's expensive af but probably got me the couple of points that meant a passing score.
Good luck, C/O 2018!